But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us. We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed. We always carry around in our body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be revealed in our body. For we who are alive are always being given over to death for Jesus’ sake, so that his life may also be revealed in our mortal body.
2 Corinthians 4:7-11
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I am simultaneously moved and silenced by Ed Dobson’s story. This is one of seven short films made to document his living with ALS (a.k.a. Lou Gehrig’s Disease). In this video he talks about how he spent his life pastoring a church of thousands, and finding that now that he’s not able to do that, he’s been given the time to better live following Jesus.
As someone who is moved by this, but who is also called to serve in ministry with all the trappings and study and work that such a call entails, I’m left wondering how to fuse the two. How to grow deeply, intently, richly into Jesus, and yet how to fulfill the call that I have felt for years and which countless others in the church have confirmed.
Update: I neglected to mention that I learned of this video through Mason Slater’s post yesterday at his blog New Ways Forward. It’s been a blessing and I’m thankful he shared it.