I have this inner voice that speaks from time to time – gollum, gollum.
You might call it my conscience. You might call it the Holy Spirit. Seth Godin might say it’s the lizard voice, while others might say I’m just plain crazy.
I’ve wondered if it’s all of these and more – gollum, gollum. Sometimes the voice is challenging. Sometimes its reassuring. Sometimes it argumentative, and other time it acquiesces to my will. Sometimes it’s a fleeting thought, a passing whisper, or a 20-ton weight hanging from my shoulders so that I can barely breath. Sometimes it speaks about decisions I have to make, while other times it talks about things over which I have no control. Sometimes its right. Sometimes its wrong – gollum, gollum, and its that last trait that makes things so difficult.
Do you ever have a voice like that? One that tries desperately to guide your decisions and your life? What do you do when it flies in the face of wisdom, logic, and reason? What do you do when its right? What do you do when its wrong?
I’m beginning to think I’ve put too much stock in this inner voice, and of course it fights me on that too – gollum, gollum. And so I wonder what am I to do? I set it up against the Bible, but that rarely helps because it doesn’t like to talk about things that I find there–at least not directly.
Actually, I don’t think I want to give much credence to anything this voice has to say – gollum, but I would instead, rather use my mind, my reason, my intellect. Study, pray, deduce, confer. That’s the plan I’d like to take. Seek the path of wisdom, rather than intuition.